I used to love riding roller coasters. My life is like a rollercoaster right now. I saw this roller coaster ride from a distance. It was actually my life so I named it The Life Roller Coaster.  It was enormous! I thought there is no way I’m getting on that ride but the reality was I didn’t have a choice.

I was like a kid kicking and screaming as the man upstairs put me in the seat. I cried “get me off of here I don’t want to ride this life roller coaster”. The ride hadn’t even started yet. I protested even louder while crying please let me off this ride. Instead of letting me off the ride, I heard the announcer say please fasten your seatbelts. Immediately after the seatbelts where applied the safety bars automatically came down on my chest. Noooo I don’t want to face the things going on in my life.

The roller coaster started going up the first major hill, (my mom’s cancer) the creaking sounds (doctors) scared the &$@# out of me. It seemed like I was never going to get to the top of this hill but when I got to the top of the roller coaster, life immediately dropped me to the bottom very fast (mom’s surgery and recovery).

Things started getting better but life picked up speed and I got some very sharp curves and dips and I thought ok I got this ride handled until I saw another damn hill coming up. Dammit, I thought the biggest hill is supposed to be the first hill.  Who built this damn rollercoaster? This hill was mentally challenging me in ways I never experienced before. (I had to make some major decisions that would affect others lives).

I thought ok I handling this hill and this ride should almost be finished.  I looked up and there is another hill that was smaller than the first two hills so I decided what the hell! I threw my hands it the air and I decided I’m not going to stress about these hills of life, the twists and turns and dips anymore. I’m going to relax and enjoy this ride. I’m at the top of this hill and the roller coaster of life is going down. Weeeeeee,  Hey I can’t stop life from happening but I can change my reaction to how I deal with it.