Yesterday was a downer day for me. Not my happy, jolly, jolly self. I gave myself permission to get back in bed, have a Hallmark television show day, drink tea and watch the snow. (Which was beautiful) I wanted to have several drinks but I’m not a big drinker. I wanted to smoke some weed but I don’t smoke weed either. Then I thought I need some chocolate. That’s my drug of choice. I went through the house looking for chocolate like a drug addicted looking for their drug. I was thinking I know I got some chocolate around here somewhere. I looked in each room and I didn’t find any. I finally decided to go to the garage to see if I had any chocolate in the car. BINGO, yesss, I have never been so happy to see that red bag with the round, smooth silky chocolate that just melts inside your mouth. The kind of chocolate that makes you hum and dance a little. Don’t tell me I am the only one who does this.
Whenever I have a day like this I just check out. I literally check out from reality, no phone calls, no working. I just loose myself in television. I don’t watch much television so this is really a treat for me. I usually watch something that doesn’t require much thinking. The Hallmark channel is filled with positive stories with happy endings and (Get your minds out the gutter) it’s just want I needed.
My best friend called me the next day. She asked me if I was alright? (She makes me sick, how can she know I was having a bad day) I told her I will call her back because I felt like I was going to cry. I asked her how did she know I wasn’t having a good day. She said I didn’t respond to her text messages and I didn’t return her call. I explained to her that I had to check out of reality for a day. I usually give myself one day to have a pity party but the next day it’s back to reality. I’m back to my semi jolly self but I will keep me some chocolate on hand just in case.